i should really stop going on the internet. it only really depresses me.
fuuuuuuuck.
predictable? oh yesssss. it's funny how i can plan things out in my head. and then they happen. like clockwork. everytime. nobody knows what i'm talking about. i don't even carreee. i'm just sick of it. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
niiiice how i don't know how to make things happen. or talk to people. my lack of ability in both are astounding. that's all.
soo walkathon is finally over. that's pretty cool. and sad in a way i suppose. it means i have free lunch periods now! well, i do tomorrow. friday is back to mr. allens room. for i guess a wrap up? or something? i don't know. we have thank you letters to write. i think i forgot to thank the committe in my speech. i meant to. none of them read this but THANKS GUYS! oh well, i'll thank them officially on friday at the meeting.
mannn it's sad how the little tiniest things can get a person down. and how i have a tendancy to blow things up in my mind. and how i have a tendancy to SUCK AT LIFE. i can never actually do things that i now i should do and would make me happy in the long run. ifffff that makes sense. and right now nobody knows what the hell i'm talking about.
so, in other news, i'm about to start the university application process. that's damn scary. i was looking at the websites last night. and i'm pretty well all set to start writing stuff up and sending stuff out. it's great how i don't even understand half of what i need to and will probably do it wrong. like i still don't get how i get my transcript to the university on time and how early admissions work. but oh well, if i get it wrong i'm only screwing up my future.
ohh and then there's the europe trip. which i really want to go on because i didnt go last year. but it's either go to europe or have spending money next year at school and not die. i think i'll pick europe. i can be one of those impoverished college students working their way through school. and i'll have gone to europe. so it'll be way worth it. i have to pay for it all myself because my mother is buying me a prom dress. that's what she told me. i guess that's pretty fair considering graduation will be really expensive. and they're paying for at least my first year of school. hopefully i can make enough money by april. probbbbbably not.
well holy heck. there's your huge dose of me complaining and being a whiny little teenager. nexxxt time i'll try and be less dumbbb.
soo it's been a while since i've done this. i don't have a lot to say anymore.
well yesterday was pretty fannnnntastic. after school me/jill got our hair cut. thenn i went to her house where everyone was thoroughly hostile and tyler ODed on girly things. then was the dance. that was a pretty good time. could have been better though. i said some things that made me feel like a biiiiitch. but i guess it was for the best in the long run.
today was the WAT PEP RALLY!! exciting shit man. this meant no classes for us special folk in the afternoon. it was a goooood time. i think it went very well and i think it got people excited. i overheard someone saying "yeah, they're always dumb" but this was NOT DUMB. it was fantastic. the only downsides were that i had to talk in front of the whole school and wear a smelly hockey jersey to show "school spirit". oh welll. it was a funfun time.
now it is a wonderful long weekend and i don't even work tomorrow. so i actully get a real day off. magggnificent. i will get lots of sleep to make up for the last month of not getting any. yayay i love weekends!
blaah i'm so sick right now. i'm all head coldy/fluish and it's not fun. i had to miss school today. which sucks ass because now i feel all guilty about missing WAT stuff and leaving kyle on his own with the remainder of our letters. and i have a paper to write and i think two tests to study for and i just can't work up enough drive or energy to do them. i can't miss school again tomorrow so i will just have to all sick. and picture day is on thursday. so i suppose i will be looking like a red nosed dying fool. i vow to find whoever gave me this virus and infect them all over again. i'm currently looking at samantha. or tyler and anna-lee. germs can spread across english tables.
well i really have nothing to say other than more complaining. so i guess i will leave things at that and go attempt my paper/studying. funnn.